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This is really difficult, but we just need to get this sad news over with, so here it goes: We went in for an ultra sound for baby and sadly there was no heart beat. 😔

It’s called a missed miscarriage. Baby is still in there, but my body doesn’t know it’s stopped growing yet. So I’m currently a weird state of limbo just waiting for it to pass.

We are pretty devastated. We have been riding a roller coaster of emotions and I just want to pretend it’s not real. But I need to move on to heal. This info needed to be shared with you all. You guys have been so sweet and supportive with your well wishes on our pregnancy 😭 you deserve to know what’s up. We knew that when we decided to publicly announce that we were expecting, that it meant we had to be willing to share this journey with you. And... well... this is the reality of this journey. It’s not pretty, and sadly it didn’t work out this time.

I want to let other women who’ve miscarried, or who’ve struggled with fertility know they are not alone. The pain is real, (emotionally and physically), and just facing the sad-surprise of, ‘you’re not having a baby anymore’ — it’s tough. I never want anyone to feel alone, but so often miscarriages are not talked about, and you’re just like suffering through it. I found lots of comfort in hearing the stories of other women who’ve opened up about their miscarriage, and hearing their success stories thereafter gives me hope. 🌈 I’ll gather my emotions and write about my experience and post on my website blog. I’ll let you know when I do in case you care to read it, and perhaps that can be a safe place to share your story too. Let’s heal each other. Till then, I’m going to try and get out of this funk 😩 and just focus on all the things we are so grateful for in this life 🙌. Mahalo ke Akua for real. We know it’s gonna be alright. 🌈👼🏻

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined.” —Henry David Thoreau

“Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.” —Dalai Lama

“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.” —Robert Frost